bliss :)

i love you i love you i love you <3

im so glad, im so glad ;)

u didn't leave me. it was neither of our fault.

hahaha

:)

'think of me'

think of me, think of me fondly

when we've said goodbye

remember me once in a while

please promise me you'll try

when you'll find that once again

you long to take your heart back and be free

if you ever find a moment

spare a thought for me

we never said our love was evergreen

or as unchanging as the sea

but if you can still remember

stop and think of me

think of all the things we've shared and see

don't think about the ways things might have been

think of me, think of me waking silent and resigned

imagine me, trying too hard to put you from my mind

recall those days, look back at all those times

think of the things we'll never do

there will never be a day

when i won't think of you

long ago, it seems so long ago

how young and innocent we were

she may not remember me

but i remember her

flowers fade, the fruit of summer fade

they have their seasons, so do we

but promise me that sometimes

you will think of me

the phantom of the opera

I think.. you're right.

i think i'm depressed.

;(

aisyah's lament

when you starts to DEPEND, thats when you know one day you will shatter to pieces.

sad as it may sound, it is most probably a universal truth, conscious or not, acknowledged or otherwise.

spoken as if someone who has had her heart broken, spirits blown away.

but perhaps i am...perhaps i am.

this..dependence, almost am i inclined to relate to hopefulness, expectations, perhaps, owing to the same sensation that all of them give when failed, will not escape us as long as we are to live in the mercy of another human being, which is unearthly otherwise for human beings are so in need of a society. so then what else can we do but to face it, chin up, feet firm on the ground and conquer the foe that we have ever been so familiar with, sensibly said. but sensibility, as we like, isn't always our vice when it comes to extremes and critical in our lives. only but few could keep them at bay.

when dependent, one is exposed to the comfort of being weak, to rejoice in the comfort of ease and at peace knowing things will be, without much effort or thought about it. the constancy makes it 'better' for it makes things fall into places, into somewhat a routine, which mankind are at nature inclined in preference to.

but someday, those routines will be broken, like routines always do, and thats when the first crack appears. pray it shall even be shattered that very instant at once. and what will people do but to typically lament on their own stupidity for having had given themselves away to weakness, to dependency against their own better judgement. with a bleeding chest, determined not to give themselves away easily the next time, only to repeat the folly, with an already cracked heart. i wonder if men will ever learn.

to take flight for your heart and go against your better judgement and risk a hard fall, or to oblige to rational sense of mind and dismiss a rekindled hope and a chance of happiness?

humans are indeed complex creatures. i wonder what shall i do...

having an easy-going personality totally trash you when it comes to assignments

having an easy-going personality is totally cool when dealing with life and its obstacles and stuff and stuff. a whole lot of stuff. but not when it comes to things that have deadlines@datelines.

damn. i am totally disregarding all the due dates, can even watch tonnes of movies, cook plenty and eat a lot more.

i even have to tell myself to be stressed about it. take this seriously. take this serously. take this seriously. its a group thing. i am dragging people down. but even that's not making me feeling guilty enough to stay away from distractions. well atleast i am somehow serious on wanna doing it cause i havent really checked up my fb as often as i did. i wonder what i can do about this...

anyhow, hihi.. last thursday's St Patrick's Day was kinda fun. bolela. the parade was..well meriah. its cool to watch outdoor parade in ireland as compared to malaysia cause the weather's nice and chillin'. although i have to stand on my toes every now n then cause we arrived quite late and couldnt quite get a good spot and this effing couple beside me fidgeting and fooling in that compacted crowd like wattefuck pliss ur wearing this paper thingy on ur body its just..ughhhh.. n theres this man smoking loads behind me i got smoke coming off from both sides of my body from behind. waaaatt...

but anyhow, later we had a great time camwhoring everywhere and then there's this guy, he was walking past us with his friends. there's people who blows whistle u know, just for the sole purpose of making noise. n there was those whistle sound near us at that time. n then this guy leans towards the direction of the noise n shouted, "oh my god, shut up!" hahaha.. it was so funny i didnt even bother to hide my laughter. ouh..that made my day :D
though we had to walk all the way from city back home cause, as usual, parades, roads shut, no buses, it was almost an hour walk, i think.

right, back to work.