exam/test?

just got through our first (supposedly) exam in rcsi. phew~

phew? i dont even deserve to let out a relief. i dont have a positive expectation on the result, but then again, i dont have any expectation at all. =/ i didnt have a burden on my shoulder to sigh relief to. i wasnt stressed out like some people did, i didnt work my ass off studying, i didnt let the 37minutes-25questions MCQ bother me at all. test? pfft.... .... aisyah shahrom, silelah berubah weyh. ini bukan zaman sekolah lagi.

just had our first (supposedly) test in rcsi.

the test accounts for about 1.25% of each module. 5 questions from each module. its really insignificant, yes, we're told that it isnt. its just to test our understanding, to assess our position, where we stand actually amidst all the never-ending lectures and anatomy classes. the assessment is not for the school, its for ourselves to see -to make amend where appropriate. in short, its just a scare.
honestly, after they say that, i dont understand why some people even worry about the test.

having the test:
it was all too quiet in the cheyne lecture theater.pass out the questions... yada3. flips the question paper.....oh.
soklan direct je. case yg panjang2 tu tak perlu pon. jawapan spesifik. ok.. aku tidak tahu karena tidak bace.. wats the point in even trying.. ma ramaitu iz ramaita walakinnallah harama. tembak.

but its just a scare. the whole point of the exam is to assess ourselves and to work towards change right? knape nak fikir that spesifik test je. wahai semua marilah fokus kepada long term.

the test triggered the formation of our study group. which is superb. because to start something is the hardest. but we started full blast with the test in mind. n we'll all make sure together that its continuous, God willing. and as for myself personally, it evoked the budak rajin-kyasu feelingness inside of me. kickstarted my study mode, to be more attentive, enthusiastic during lectures. (btw, i think i ike prof. dermot cox, he's so cuteeeeee! XD n eventhough u teach molecular and cellular therapeutics i'd still like ur lectures n topics ;D)

overall.. even without the result, even before the supposedly 'seeing where one stand', im already working towards the betterment.

hopefully this isnt just hangat2 tahi ayam, but i think i know myself well enough.